Glasgow Smile

Ah. Finally I am writing on this space again. Been, what, a month?
Wait, let me check.... Yeah, a month, give or take.
Huh. And now I am simply writing what comes to mind.
Yeah so what? This is MY blog, it's up to me what I write here!
Geez, relax. Anything interesting lately?
Ummm.... Right now I am watching Hellboy on TV. I LOVE this movie.
On TV? I don't have a TV in my room!
Yes but I am currently at my grandparents', so....
Oh, lucky me, huh.
Okay, right now I'm confused.
Of course, I'm conversing with myself about things which just pop up into mind.
Which reminds me, about that chemistr
STOP THINKING ABOUT THAT BLOODY CHEMISTRY EXAM!
Okay, okay, sheeesh. Ah, now I remember on Monday I'm going to....
STOP THINKING ABOUT ANY KIND OF EXAMS!
....have a calculus exam. What can I do? I can't help thinking about it.
Bah.
Man, I'd really love to read The Phantom Tollbooth again.
Oh yeah, that book was brilliant. Too bad it's so hard to find.
Ah! I can't keep up with my thoughts. I'm not a speed typist.
I'm just doing this because I can't come up with a decent topic for this post.
Nah, I'm doing this to vent my confusion after the damn exam.
Suddenly Phoenix Wright pops up in my mind. Phoenix Wright. Don't even know how.
Now Peter Griffin comes along.
Wow, when I try to follow what I'm thinking, I get confused myself.
I mean, I am thinking about the fact that I am thinking, and that thought is also in my head, so it's kind of some multilevel thinking or something.
Blows my mind.
Ha ha.
Darth Vader. Wow, that was random.
From a guy who gets confused thinking about his thoughts, what else do you expect?
Comics! Understanding Comics! Scott McCloud!
Damn.
Huh. Ever think how Italians pronounce 'zz' like they have a 't' or 'd' before the z's?
Yeah, like in 'pizza'.
....Actually that's the only Italian word I know which has double z's like that.
Wait, what about.... 'palazzo'?
Is that right? I don't know, I never studied Italian.
Eeeewww. Suddenly my mind jumps to FROG EGGS.
I hate frogs. Not hate, really, just get very, very disgusted if I saw one up close.
Insanity! Insanity!
That reminds me of Soul to Squeeze, that....
....song by Red Hot Chili Peppers, yes. I know.
........
What? You ran out of thoughts?
No, not that, but I simply can't keep track of my own thoughts!
Bah. So? We end it here?

Yeah.

Ciao.

"What's the situation, Captain?"

I don't know what I'm feeling right now, friends.

Is this grief?
Fear?
Pain?
Or simple, plain, pure stupidity?

I don't know what to do.
What I have done, what I am doing, what I will do.

Is this life?
Why is it so?

Hast Thou forsaken me, Lord?
Why am I becoming this way?

Every night, I lay down to sleep in the hope that I will not wake.
Every day, I wake wishing that today will be my last day.

It is not the night I fear.
I can get through the night fine.
It is the morning I dread.

The things I have to do....
The things I have done....
The things I should have done....

Really.
I really wish I could die real soon, Lord.

'Lemon Tree' by Fool's Garden

Ah. I am so happy right now.

Why? What happened?
Truth be told, next to nothing happened.

What I did was simply to go to my grandparents' house, stopping at a bookstore along the way.

See?
This is quite a mundane routine, some might say.

But somehow, I feel happy after I got back from my grandparents'.

Why?

I think it's because of the small, simple pleasures I happen to experience along the way.

For instance, at the bookstore.
The bookstore offered a 15% discount for ALL ITEMS.
And, for purchases above 20,000 IDR, they offer to coat your book with plastic cover. For free.
And the guy at the bag deposit place was real friendly.

Then, at my grandparents'.
Just the usual.
I had a wash. Had dinner. Talked about my studies a bit.

I mean, these things might not seem important enough or significant enough for me to write about, or even remember.
You might not even see what is so nice about them.
But I do remember them.
And simple things like these are what keeps me going through this life.
What makes the tasks ahead seem less impossible.
What makes tomorrow full of happy possibilities.
What keeps worries out of my head.
I just realized it now.

My friends....
I think I am beginning to love this life.

A pity it took me eighteen years to do so.

Piece of cake? No. Easy as pi.

Oh iya, selamat hari raya Idul Fitri buat yang merayakan lho. Gw bukan Muslim, tapi gw ikutan seneng kok libur hahaha.

Kemaren gw ke gereja. Dan, seperti biasa, pikiran menerawang ke mana-mana. Gw kemaren mikirin soal bilangan irasional selama khotbah. Buset gak tuh. Tapi biarlah.

Nah. Bilangan irasional. Apa itu? Dari kata dasar rasio=perbandingan. Jadi bilangan rasional itu adalah bilangan yang bisa dinyatakan sebagai perbandingan 2 bilangan bulat. Misalnya, 0.5 itu kan sama dengan 1/2 (perbandingan 1 dan 2, yang dua-duanya adalah bilangan bulat.) Kalo bilangan irasional? Ya bilangan yang enggak bisa dinyatakan sebagai perbandingan 2 bilangan bulat. Kalo kemaren di kelas kalkulus contoh yang dikasih sih:
Akar 2.
Akar 3.
Pi.

Nah yang terakhir ini kemaren gw pikirin lagi. Pi? Pertama-tama, apa itu pi? Yang gw tau sih pi itu dipake pas nentuin luas dan keliling lingkaran. Pi itu konstanta, nilainya tetap. Kalo buat nyari keliling lingkaran, rumusnya itu
[Pi x diameter lingkaran = keliling lingkaran.]

Tapi dari mana orang dapet angka pi, yang sekarang banyak dipake 3.142 sekian sekian? Menurut gw, orang dapet pi engga lain dan engga bukan adalah ya menghitung perbandingan keliling lingkaran sama diameternya. Kan rumus yang di atas kalo dibalik kan jadi
[Keliling lingkaran/diameter lingkaran = pi.]

Liat ga? Jadi menurut definisi, pi itu perbandingan keliling lingkaran sama diameternya. Jadi? Masak irasional?

Tapi harus diliat, nilai pi ga selalu 3.142 sekian sekian itu lho. Gw ambil satu contoh. Alkitab. Jadi, ini nilai pi-nya orang Ibrani waktu jamannya Raja Salomo.
1 Raja-raja 7:23 (LAI):
'Kemudian dibuatnyalah "laut" tuangan yang sepuluh hasta dari tepi ke tepi, bundar keliling, lima hasta tingginya, dan yang dapat dililit berkeliling oleh tali yang tiga puluh hasta panjangnya.'

Untuk penjelasan, ini waktu Salomo lagi ngebangun Bait Suci, nah ini ada semacam bak gitu buat nampung air, dengan spesifikasi seperti di atas. Kalo diliat, diameternya 10 hasta dan kelilingnya 30 hasta. Jadi menurut Alkitab, nilai pi itu
30/10 = 3.
Bukan 3.142 sekian sekian itu kan?

Tapi mungkin gini. Mungkin ini cuma masalah pengukuran. Mungkin presisi sama akurasi pengukuran mereka belom terlalu bagus. Kemungkinan besar sih begitu. Mungkin sebenernya kelilingnya engga tepat 30 hasta. Mungkin diameternya bukan 10 hasta. Mungkin sebenernya itu bejana engga bunder bener-bener. Ya kan?

Tapiiii, kalo ternyata iya cuma masalah akurasi sama presisi pengukuran, berarti ini masalah ga akan bisa terpecahkan. Kenapa? Karena kita tinggal dalam ruang 3 dimensi. Kalo mau tepat banget, tingkat presisi maksimum, titik pengukurnya harus bener-bener 0 panjang, lebar, sama tingginya. Padahal semua benda yang ada dalam ruang, punya volume dong. Bayangin deh. Kertas setipis apapun pasti masih punya ketebalan kan?

Kalo bukan masalah pengukuran, masalah apa dong? Kita langsung terima jadi aja, "Oh, pi itu 3.142."? Bahkan kalo di SD boleh pake pi = 22/7. Gitu? Mana mau.

Haaah. Matematika itu emang bukan sains sih. Jadi gini deh. Soal apakah pi itu rasional ato irasional? Karena matematika itu bukan sains, biarin aja dewan tinggi matematika memutuskan.